My mom has now moved in with us as she can't live alone any longer. Probably mid stage dementia. Her narcissistic personality disorder has always been challenging, but with dementia it's like throwing gasoline on a fire. Is anyone else dealing with this?
Everything revolves around her in her mind and only her requests and needs and wants seem important to her.
Welcome to the Alzheimer's caregiver hangout. You can say whatever you want here and no one will judge you. We've all been in your shoes.
I'll bet your best friend hasn't been in your situation, caretaking a demented, narcissistic mother, has she? She has no idea what you're going through. We do, at times it's pure hell.
Whether your mom was narcissistic all her life (like mine and SO many others were) or she is just in her own little world and the only person who counts is her, it's really hard to put up with.
How selfless can we be until we loose ourselves all together? No one can be cheerful 100% of the time.
Do NOT accept guilt from anyone. Don't bring up the subject, but, if she does, ask her to stay with your mom for a couple of hours while you go to a doctor appointment. THEN she'll see the other side.
Until then, keep venting away right here. We're in the trenches with you. 😉
P.S. Carve out some alone time (away from your mother) each week. It's vital for mental health!
Life with alzheimers is a good FB group for caretakers ,I am in it and I am a caretaker in private care who would not know nearly as much if it were not for the input of those who have been through it !
I’ve just learned my mother purchased a new vehicle and has had it hid in her garage. We were out of town for Thanksgiving, and found out she actually purchased it two days before we left. Downpayment check has cleared, loan papers were signed, and now she’s claiming she was hustled and wants me to get an attorney! She lives alone, and already has a excellent car. I have POA, but she is not incompetent, I’m not sure what to do to help her now. Any advice would be appreciated.
One way or another he needs to be instutionized probably in memory care which he will never agree to.
His behavior outside the home is typical of dementia and is called "showtimeing"
You are clearly being abused but as you say can't afford to move.. If he is physically abusive be sure to get pictures of your injuries. Can you find a support group for abused wives? The facilitators will know of all the services available to you.
Don't give up on therapists. make it clear that this is a first visit to see if the two of you can get along. Be very proactive and put your expectations out on the table. if they are not met get up and leave. Remember you are the customer and paying their fee. you may go through a number of therapists before you find a good match but keep trying.
If you think he is alcoholic try going to alanon meetings for spouses, you may find support there and good suggestions. Many other people are in similar situations so I am sure you will get other replies. Blessings
My mother is able to email (at age 88) and finally after up to 50 horrible emails a day, I have her emails going to my “junk” email which has helped me tremendously. I only visit once a week. I know that no matter what I do she will never appreciate it and I’m coming to terms with that. I would NEVER move her into my home. She is in a Retirement Residence & not happy about being there but I deserve a life too...and not one like hers. I’m still reading, trying new approaches, forcing myself to visit only once a week & understanding that the Retirement Residence (we put her in...& she hates) will call if she is ill or falls. It is independent living but she is served meals & has a lifeline on her wrist to call for help should she need it. I was going crazy until I started making changes...she is nasty about everything but none of us owe our lives to our mothers if we are miserable because of their behaviour. It has taken time & therapy for me to get to this point, believe me. But gradually I am taking my life back and the joy & happiness I ALLOWED her to steal away from me. Hugs to you ALL 🤗 This is a terrible thing to go through but only YOU can look after yourself & take your life back. You are NOT deserting her....she is going to be the same no matter what you do. So give yourself the gift of a little peace. And read Stop Walking on Eggshells.
Please don't turn your back on therapy. All therapists aren't like the one you went to. Give it another chance. Get an older female therapist, if available.
1. Have you thought about calling Adult Protective Services? They could assess how safe you (and he) are in the home (boat) and make a recommendation. At least your call would be documented on file if things got worse.
2. You could talk to his doctor (alone), detailing the problems he has and how you fear for your safety. Also, discuss the medications he takes (or doesn't take) with him. Maybe he could be helped with an anti-anxiety or antipsychotic drug. Does he have a psychiatrist? If so, Discuss the different mental diseases he has and how they are affecting him (and you!) Ask to speak to the doctor personally. Do not leave a message. Go see him face to face if necessary. Is he on meds for ALL of his psychiatric problems?
3. Do you have a neighbor or friend that you can turn to in an emergency? Get that set up "just in case" of (what you described as) "dangerous impulsive actions". You have to have an emergency plan.
4. Speak to an elder law attorney to find out what your rights are. If you get one connected with a senior center, often times their consultation is free or only a small donation.
5. Do you have religious clergy you could go to? (Priest, pastor, rabbi, Imam, etc.) Usually religious organizations are equipped to assist people in need.
6. Call a local hospital and ask to speak to a social worker. They have tons of information and referrals for situations like this.
Your situation sounds potentially serious. His end stage renal failure could be what's causing some of the bizarre behavior too, due to toxic waste buildup. Does he go for dialysis? If not, make sure he gets his blood checked for toxic levels of waste.
If you feel you are in danger, don't hesitate to call police immediately if he threatens you. Your safety is of the utmost importance.
Please get back to us soon about your situation.
You have people in the same "boat" here who can help.
Good luck and God bless.
LVKDRA - it is the life long narcissism which is so damaging. It is an illness too. One has to protect oneself but the child cannot get away. I have forgiven, but that does not heal the scars from a lifetime of emotional and verbal abuse and rages. Dementia just adds another layer of stuff to deal with. It certainly is important to take breaks when we can.
It’s nice to vent and see where others are caring for ‘the difficult one!’